Affairs of the heart

Just before hubby left for his 4 months, I told him that I will keep updating this blog. I told him, wherever he is, while he is travelling, please do have a look at what I have written. I actually promise to give him a summarized version of what happended at home. Daily. This way, he will be able to know the going-ons at home. Abang just smiled. He said that he will not have the time nor the capability to log on to any cyber cafes or whatsoever. Hehehe...of course I knew that. I was just trying to cheer him up. A few days before he left us, he was quite glum. It is not because he did not want to go but because we were all in quite a low spiritual state. Our imaan was really weak. Bateri lemah. It has been nearly 5 years since his last 40 days. Throughout these 5 years, we were so busy with dunia. It's tough in Malaysia. ALthough physically we live in an Islamic state...but it is difficult to hold on to our Islamic spirit. Susah nak kekalkan semangat dan jazbah. People around us keep on talking about dunia. We, ourselves keep on talking and worrying about dunia. Thus, dunia is what is in our hearts. Thus, now, after so much effort onto our dunia...we are trying to make some small effort for our deen and imaan...May ALlah look kindly upon us and accepts this effort of ours. Oh Allah, we are weak. Please help us be strong...be steadfast in our faith onto You.